Do, To

This morning I dreamt I lived in a kitchen with laundry machines instead of cabinets, a

Subtle reminder of the piles of clothes waiting for me to tend to them.

I dreamt of neighbors who are leaving dropping in to say goodbye and

Then locking the doors behind them so I have to crawl through the window

To let the dog out.

I dreamt of friends who want to be here but don’t know where to put their dishes,

On top of the washer or dryer?

And unsurprisingly after waking from this dream I was so very angry

By all the nagging worries and

Life/living/loving concerns and

Anger makes me hateful.

I was so overcome that I didn’t know how to walk away or through it all

So the kids watched TV while I muttered into my coffee and around my bagel

Typing an angry email and silently judging the people in the news.

But I still haven’t started the laundry, or bought milk, or balanced the checkbook.